People and their Problems

People really get to me. I have been trying to help others but they don't help themselves or they treat me like crap. I am going to do my own solo thing if this is the way I get treated. I do not have to help others who don't appreciate me.

I may sound cynical, but I am very frustrated with some individuals right now. I will not say names, but they probably know who they are. I thought I knew these people better than this, but I was mistaken. Thats okay, if you don't want to be in my life, get out.

I'm done.

Single or Freedom?

So now that I'm single, I realize that not everything is horrible. At first, I thought about how terrible every love song or movie would be.

Tonight I watched my first chick flick as a single woman. Mind you, this was not my choice. I do not like chick flicks. I will take a good ole fashion hack-and-slash any day over a chick flick, but I was in the company of someone who wanted to watch Juno.

Now the movie itself was okay. Nothing special. There was funny parts and sweet parts. I felt a little down towards the end, but I'm okay. I survived.

Although, now that I am single, a whole world has opened up to me. Things I couldn't do before, I can now accomplish. One thing I have been considering greatly is mortuary college. When I was in my long term commitment, I refused to go because I would be three hours from home. My whole life, the love of my life, would be three hours away. I would only have the weekends to spend with him. But now, I have nothing to hold me back.

I'm beginning to look at this break up as an open door, not a closing door. Yes, this really sucked. Yes, I lost what I thought was the love of my life. Yes, I believe I will not be able to love again. But, I am also seeing great opportunities before my eyes. I can get another job (maybe) or go to the school I always wanted to go. Or stay up late. Or go to bed early.

Freedom is ultimately what I'm feeling now that the hurt is gone. I do want to date people, I do want to see others, but I don't want to get tied down like I once was. I may never get tied down like that again. Only time will reveal that to me.

Until I figure these things out, I'll just keep on trucking and entertain my inner dinosaur. :)

Working Hard or Hardly Working?

So, a lot has happened and I haven't updated my blog.

Here is the cliff notes version:

1. My relationship with Jackson is over. He broke up with me. If you need to know more, ask.

2. I'm trying to cope with #1 and finish school. The end of the semester is always tough.

3. I'm looking for other employment to compensate for the lack of Subing I've done lately, plus summer is coming up quickly.

4. I have been getting rid of Jackson's stuff and things I don't need anymore. Spring Cleaning!

5. I've begun to write poetry. Mostly about stuff that is happening to me, but I'm beginning to branch out.

6. I've met some cool new people at school and around town.

7. I did a presentation on the dangers of energy drinks for a health class.

8. I'm still at the Country Kitchen, working to death.

9. I've been playing lots of video games, thanks to Daren. Mostly Left 4 Dead and Guitar Hero 2-4.

10. I'm beginning to find myself. I have good days and bad days, but I'm making progress. One day at a time, I'm moving forward and not looking back.

Hopefully, this update will suffice. If you need addition info, 1. ask, 2. check facebook, or 3. myspace. :)