Single or Freedom?

So now that I'm single, I realize that not everything is horrible. At first, I thought about how terrible every love song or movie would be.

Tonight I watched my first chick flick as a single woman. Mind you, this was not my choice. I do not like chick flicks. I will take a good ole fashion hack-and-slash any day over a chick flick, but I was in the company of someone who wanted to watch Juno.

Now the movie itself was okay. Nothing special. There was funny parts and sweet parts. I felt a little down towards the end, but I'm okay. I survived.

Although, now that I am single, a whole world has opened up to me. Things I couldn't do before, I can now accomplish. One thing I have been considering greatly is mortuary college. When I was in my long term commitment, I refused to go because I would be three hours from home. My whole life, the love of my life, would be three hours away. I would only have the weekends to spend with him. But now, I have nothing to hold me back.

I'm beginning to look at this break up as an open door, not a closing door. Yes, this really sucked. Yes, I lost what I thought was the love of my life. Yes, I believe I will not be able to love again. But, I am also seeing great opportunities before my eyes. I can get another job (maybe) or go to the school I always wanted to go. Or stay up late. Or go to bed early.

Freedom is ultimately what I'm feeling now that the hurt is gone. I do want to date people, I do want to see others, but I don't want to get tied down like I once was. I may never get tied down like that again. Only time will reveal that to me.

Until I figure these things out, I'll just keep on trucking and entertain my inner dinosaur. :)